Tuesday, November 04, 2008

No more Aimless

For anyone who hasn't figured this out yet: Um, I'm almost certainly done blogging and this Aimless thing is effectively over, even though I'll be on the road for at least a little while longer. I'm just tired, lonely, mega stressed out, a little cuckoo, and I don't care anymore. --> To Amanda from Flying J, if you're out there: I'd really like to hear from you ASAP (like as soon as you read this). Your smile makes me feel good and your eyes seem to have spoken nice things to me, which I'm probably all wrong about, only because I feel like I want it to be true. Anyway, I'd just like to talk to you. I walked five unnecessary miles tonight, just hoping you'd be around so I might be able to talk to you a little bit. Obviously things didn't go as I'd hoped. (For everyone else: This Flying J has a rent-a-cop who thinks he makes a difference by kicking out very good customers simply because
they carry large backpacks.) Call me, Amanda. A few people think I'm a really nice guy.

7 comments:

docrivs said...

no, i didn't realize that you were serious about quitting what you're doing. i thought that this was the life that you wanted to live. i can tell that you get stressed out and all. that's understandable. maybe that will pass? if not, and you really want to go back to ohio or settle down somewhere and become a sedentary person, instead of a nomad, then do what you want to do. it seems like maybe you're lonely too. that's understandable. i've thought that a nomadic style of life, without the large groups that nomads often travel in, would be a lonely life. the 'where you lay your head is home' kind of thing seems a little solitary, at times. maybe you could join the phish kids and follow them around for a little while, or something like that... do some journalistic kind of writing? that would be cool. you could be an anthropologist, a writer, a journalist, or whatever you want. go find amanda, if you still want to, but don't forget that you have it inside you, man! sure you can be a dick sometimes, like everyone in the world. sure, sometimes you say the wrong thing at the wrong time, like everyone else does. but you also can be a nice guy, and what i like most about you is that you are a unique individual -- some might say 'weird', 'odd', 'strange', 'eccentric'. but fuck them. rock!

docrivs said...

oh... and just by coincidence... jeff buckley is playing on my lastfm radio. i am listening to radiohead radio, and right when i start writing to you... jeff buckley plays. corpus christi carol. you're right about him. he was awesome. i like the song, 'grace' a lot, in addition to 'hallelujah'.

Ryan M. Powell said...

Hallelujah is incredible. Have you ever heard Leonard Cohen's original? Good song, but Buckley made it amazing.

See if you can dig up his cover of 'Back in NYC' (early Genesis, with Peter Gabriel). That song is awesome. I heard the original once. It was cool, but it couldn't touch Buckley's cover. He was so good at taking great songs and making them even better.

I wish he hadn't taken a dip in the river.

docrivs said...

can't seem to find a recording of buckley's 'back in nyc', but still looking. i found the original. decent song. yeah, i've heard the original 'hallelujah', as well as another version that's decent. buckley's is the best. yeah, that is really sad how he died.

Ryan M. Powell said...

'Back in NYC' is on the album 'Sketches for My Sweetheart the Drunk,' which contains stuff he was working on when he died. I don't know if you can find it on the internet anywhere. In fact, I really don't know how to look for music on the internet, anyway, other than YouTube.

docrivs said...

actually, i didn't even check youtube. i was looking for just the mp3. i'll check there.

docrivs said...

found it right away: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H8Rr8iVJ7ok

very, very good. it kind of starts off a little slow, but it builds and builds. i never realized that the singer of muse seems to have a buckley sound to his vocals.

the end of 'back in nyc' (buckley's) is awesome. the music/instrumental part, with all those weird, lo-fi sounds. very cool.